Nobody is responsable for no one or has the obligation to help someone. You should not get frustrated because someone doesn't help you or give you freebies, because in the end of the day, nobody is obligated to do that.
Some months ago, i saw a newbie in the shoutbox that wanted to buy a Blue Black Stone, but he only had 5 PDs and the other player was asking for 30 PDs for it. I saw that, so i pmed the guy and gave him the remaining 25 PDs that i had, so he could buy that BBS. The guy didn't even asked me for help, or even knew me. But that's me, not everyone. I did it because i like to help everyone when i can and want, but in the end i'm not obligated to do it or is someone else.
Yeah i'm like you, i don't play Forces, not because they are difficult, but because i dislike the class. Althou, the advise regarding starting with FOs, it's a very good advise and kinda "eases" your worries. It's cheap to get the essencials and to be decent and useful for your team. You'll be very dependent on others, but that's part of starting the game. If you change your mind and go for the Force route, PM me because i have tons of >lvl 28 Techs that i don't mind to give you for free.
If you like Rangers for example, you can build a decent range with very "basic" items. Get a hitless Arrest Needle that works very decently without hit in ep1 and ep4 (if possible, convert it to a Arrest Needle), Frozen Shooter, Psycho Ravens (If not possible, get a Hitless Heaven Striker that shouldn't be too expensive) for single target "burst" and get basic weapons like Hell Rayguns, Hell Laser, Demon raygun/laser, etc. Even a 30 hit one, is like 1 pd at most and there are alot of people with them. You can also check the shops everytime you enter in a room to see if they are selling those weapons with hit.
With that, you have a more than enough useful Ranger to play with others and do your job decently.
I don't think anyone thinks that your punishment was harsh. You dug your own grave and you knew the possible consequences of it and didn't care about (until now, apparently). I personally think that you are very lucky to still be allowed to play here in this community and you are still very lucky that people are trying to help you, giving you information and attention and even me, considering helping you out with some freebies. After all that happened, instead of always saying those silly things, remind to behave if you want to stick around with us and get helped out.
This is a grinding game and it's old. As every grinding game, you have to grind your items. There's not a magical formula for that. You either put your time and do slow progresses, or donate money and buy all your gear. Either way, it always will cost you something, it's your choice if you want to spend time or money. If you can't accept the nature of the game, the game is just not for you. Part of what motivates people playing the game, it's the gamble of hunting items that you don't have and desire having. I don't see that desire in you. You want to go to into a "Veni, vidi, vici" way, which is not the way in this type of games, or anything in life either.
We all started like that. I play here for like 5 years and i still have some things to finish. I didn't think there was a magical formula to jump fast to the end game, so i stood around, learned, made friends to play with and slowly grinded till today.
I like grinding games, but i understand that you don't like. I just think you're are trying to force yourself to like it, but deep inside, you simply don't like PSO. And that's totally fine.