Virec

Hey there Virec. As I see you have a Pagan symbol as your avatar, which maybe not mean anything, but anyhow.... If you share their basic point of view, there are still many active groups of modern paganism today. They might provide something you are looking for. Sometimes it can be a relief to share things with like minded people, to feel there are someone out there that are able to understand. Someone who cares. Not because they have to, but because they want to. They might even have walked...

They might even have walked the same road as you on their journey. Even though the above is totally wrong, reaching out to significant others as a first step is never wrong. Hope you soon will find balance again, even in the darkest corners of the universe... there are light.

People who really want to kill themselves don't waste time posting about it on forums. This is a cry for attention if I've ever seen one. I say this seriously, you need some mental help. I've seen you blissfully happy one week then the next you're telling ppl you'll kill yourself. No one can respect such a moody and mentally unstable person. Seek help imo. Idc what happens to you personally, but if you care at all about your friends you'll seek help...