Emewn
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El Terror. Sasquatchin' Dominicano. El Taino. Realest Man Alive
- Birthday 10/26/1992
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Addiction is a complicated subject. Like living an unfulfilled life, boredom is a thing well worth avoiding. The issue with people and addictions is that people are actually substituting something else with the addiction. That something else is what should be questioned. It would seem that the majority of people are more depressed than they would like to admit. Unhappiness can lead to addictions. Therefore, even an unfulfilling job can cause a person to become addicted to something. Anything that can make a person unhappy can cause addictions. People can become addicted to literally anything. Its a choice. Whatever fills the void. Anybody can quit being addicted with a bit of effort and dedication. A lot of people who are addicted to drugs know that its bad for them, and that they need to quit. Perhaps its the environment that makes people sick. Either way, addictions are mere habits that should be replaced with good habits. Positive change starts the moment people realize they deserve the best. Nobody will acknowledge my words, because I am just a poor crazy man. So be it.
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you are so right about that
i know because i'm an addict (and once an addict ALWAYS an addict)
due to an accident in high school at 17 i crushed 3 disc had to 4 vertabrates fused and rods and screws connecting my spine back together resulting in the doctors finally have to prescribe the 100mcg Fentanyl patch and 15mg of pure oxycodone 4x a day for break thru pain
during the treatment i found that not only did it dull the physical pain but the mental pain from PTSD that was brought on from an incident that occured when i was 11 (which i won't go into)
so i took more and more as my tolerance built up until i basically became "comfortably numb"
then one day i realized not only was i an embrassment to myself but even worse a shame to my loved ones
i realized something had to give before someone found me OD'ed in a bathroom
the thoughts of doing that to my loved ones gave the the strenght to try to get my life back on track before it was 2 late
that was 14 months ago and i still crave the opiods and each day its a fight not to give in (ooh a couple more pills won't hurt) but now i have a "carrot on a stick" to help me thru a loving husband and a baby or 2 in the future
i posted this not for sympathy or attention but as a warning for what could happen to anyone and the hope that no one will ever go thru that
i just hope that this confession won't change how my friends on here feel about me...sometimes it really helps to vent about things to strangers that you can't talk about to family
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