For most people here, this server is pay2win. They donated real $$$$ to the server for a fast-track to obtain rare items and gear that they didn't find. You're basically their antithesis. They can't relate, so they hate. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
Your best bet is playing on One Player Mode, if you want to solo. I would suggest going through the government questline. Raising your mag will truly make progression a lot smoother. The command "/magtimer" is your best friend. The Max Stats Guide will give you guidance on how you should raise your mag and use stat materials according to class. Sounds to me like you should try playing some of Normal Episode II, it may be your next step up before you move on to Hard Episode I.